Current Mood: Angry & Angry

I’ve seen several comments and/or references over the years, on blogs, messageboards, and many other places indicating that having a paysite in connection with porn and fetish work somehow indicates “fakery” and that only someone doing it for the “pure love” of it (aka:  free) can truly be considered to be a woman who “understands.”  Often specifically:  someone who “understands the smoking fetish.”

To my mind, the fact that I have been willing to put thousands of dollars into cameras, webcams, costumes, props, and expensive American cigarettes NOT available in Canada (not to mention 8 fucking years of my life) should indicate just the opposite:  such dedication to and genuine interest that I want to be sure I can provide the best possible medium to show it off, whether it be the fun Joe and I have fucking or my genuine love of smoking cigarettes for those who enjoy watching a woman smoke.

Asking that people then pay to see it is basic common sense.  I’m not rich.  I have an idea for something that requires large expenditures, thus I should probably make sure I get something back for it.

Duh.

• Each of the 13 webcams in my home cost anywhere from $35 to $150.  Since $35 often gives you a piece of shit webcam with crappy picture quality, most of them have cost towards the end of the spectrum.
• Each of the 5 camcorders we have gone through to capture video over the years has cost anywhere from $500 to $2500.  The two most recent we shoot with were each $2500.  The others cost money and are now gathering dust, having become  obsolete.  That’s life with technology.
• Joe’s lights, umbrellas, tripods, lenses = who the hell knows?  He might.  I don’t.  And now he needs a new camera, btw.
• Bandwidth and just HAVING an internet connection costs me (just ME — Joe has his own) almost $300 a month.
• American cigarettes I get from American site members willing to send me some as gifts. Then I give them free memberships to cover the expense.   They do not ask for this.  I do it as a courtesy and a thank-you.
• Hosting costs us hundreds of dollars a month.
• 6 computers to run it all:   $600 to $1400 each.
• Lingerie, costumes, holders, high heel shoes (shoes alone: $40 – $80 a pair) all cost money.

Then there is the time factor:  operating paysites = making a promise to the public to provide regularly scheduled quality updates in gallery or video form.

• Each “shoot” =  a minimum of 3 hours. Three hours that I am NOT out somewhere else working and making money.
• Editing, uploading video: 4 hours a week, twice a week.
• Weekly camshow:  time spent getting ready/time on camera 2 hours.  Time spent doing my hair or painting my face, when I could just sit like a lump on my couch in gympants.  OR be out somewhere else making money.  At a job.  That pays.

To say nothing of about 30 more hours a week spent on promotion, answering email, geeky maintenance, and god knows what else.   This time and expense, to me, should indicate the HIGHEST dedication to and love of sex and the smoking fetish possible to you.

Then there is the  general impact on my life from the fact that I openly and publicly run sex sites and will usually admit to doing so when asked.   I’m not snapping a few sneaky pictures to post on yahoo with my face blurred.  I’m right fucking out there in crystal clear clarity, advertising my ass all over the internet as MINA THE PORN FETISH SEX CHICK WHO SMOKES AND FUCKS LIVE ON 13 WEBCAMS ALL OVER HER HOUSE.

Which to many people  (including several members of our friends and families) STILL translates to dirty, skanky PORN WHORE.  I have put myself out there publicly and thus have had to deal with a level of disdain, disrespect, and prejudice that some casual yahoo poster will never have to know about.  My face isn’t blurred, and neither is my twat — it’s right there, and anyone who surfs for porn will eventually find me and see it all.

You’d think that would put us on an even playing field right? If they’re LOOKING for porn, how is that any different than CREATING and SELLING porn?   The difference lies between my legs.  Because I have a vagina, it is somehow assumed that the ability to intelligently and calculatedly attach a monetary value to it and then ASK for it somehow renders me “less” than what a woman “should” be.  Something must be wrong with me.  Women (it is presumed) who can that cold-bloodedly sell their ass to thousands of strangers must be (insert your favorite degradation here).

Just as (in the opinion of many) Joe is a cool motherfucker for taking pictures of naked women and selling them, I am most likely to be considered a loser skank for doing it. The double standard exists.  Men in porn are studs, women are mindless sluts.  A man who can take a picture of a naked woman and command a price for it is a savvy, intelligent, business-smart motherfucker.  A woman who would pose for that picture (or WORSE!!) sell it herself must have something wrong with her.

I get hit on by men who should fucking well know better.  I get treated like a dirty joke.  I get my name used by family members when they want to keep their children in line, because “god forbid you turn out like your aunt.”  I get touched.  I get grabbed.  I get snickered at when I try to explain that spreading my legs for a lens is the LEAST of the work I do.

So let’s recap, shall we?  I’m supposed to spend (over an 8 year period) thousands of dollars on technology/equipment/whatever, spent 40 hours a week in total isolation in my office without the usual social opportunity to make friends, be treated like a stupid whore for doing it, and THEN hand out the results for free lest it be assumed that I am not truly DEDICATED to the exhibition of my own sex life and smoking fetish????

FUCK YOU.

YOU try it then.  And let’s see how “dedicated” you are.  Odds are you won’t last for more than 3 updates before you realize just how much work it is (or you go broke trying to make content people won’t label as “looking like shit”).  And the first time some asshole (who is probably someone you considered a friend) grabs your wife’s ass because “what the fuck, you guys said you do porn???” let’s see how you feel.

That you should consider me as “less” of a performer than some bored bitch on yahoo posting 2 blurry pictures because she had a fight with her husband that day and she wants to “show him” indicates more ignorance than you will ever know.

Current Mood: Happy

Good morning, dear Readers.  Happy weekend, and I hope you’re having a drier one than we are.  It’s rained almost all summer here, which sucks donkey balls but we’ve still managed to have ourselves a good time and get away a bit.

We’re off again today (shower time after I proof read here), as a matter of fact, so I wanted to give Mina Members a head’s up that my SpyCams will be off all weekend.  Sorry guys, but we’re going camping today til Sunday, and while I know some of you just CAN’T get enough of the cats, I’d like to give all 6 of our computers a bit of a break, since we’re won’t be home anyway.  Thanks for your understanding, as always.

I do hope, however, that you enjoyed watching us entertain our friends, Siobhan and John last night.  We had a great time (NEVER get to see enough of them), my sexy personal Chef Joe made us a mess of steaks and crab legs, the booze flowed nicely, and of course I had to slip in a little manicure practice and girl-talk time.

If you recall, Siobhan and John are the couple I mentioned previously as possibly being interested in having us host a website for them and joining our network (given that they’ve got a delightful naughty streak that may well out-do ours!), but in the end family obligations won out and they decided against it.  Which is a great loss for the internet porn community, but perfectly understandable.

It IS entirely possible though that Mina Members will get to see her, at least (or ooh, both?  Yum!), indulge in a little discreet guest starring for our sites at some point.  They take their family responsibilities very seriously, but are still considering a bit of naughty fun just for the hell of it, so long as it remains discreetly labeled Members Area Only.  Stay tuned, darlings.  You will of course, be the first to know should they decide to grace us with their presence, and we will SOOOO welcome them warmly if they do.

In other news, it’s been a very busy few weeks, as always.  Hot new sexy indie porn updates, lots of running around, kickass hot hardcore fucking last weekend that I hear Mina Members GREATLY enjoyed seeing (and my Christ, I think I’m STILL a bit sore — my honey DO bang me nicely….)  I’ve got two weeks off my nail tech course and have been having fun practicing on my friends.   Although I’m still…so…..goddamn….SLOW!!!

Interestingly enough, it turns out Siobhan was once a nail technician herself until she decided she’d rather be home with her family.  She very generously dropped an ASSLOAD of gear she had left over on me last night and holy crap, it made for a bit for a bit of a happy dance.  I was crazy about her BEFORE she gave me stuff and hinted at getting naughty for me…now….damn!  This sexy babe is rapidly approaching New Best Friend status!  Now if I could just get my little friend J naked….ahem…

So I do hope Mina Members and Dear Readers have a lovely weekend, and send us a wish that we do too.  It’s supposed to rain again ALL weekend (of course) but it can’t be much worse than the last time we went.  It literally downpoured every single day at least once the last time and we still managed to have fun.  Nature, do your worst!!!

We’ll be back Sunday, just long enough to hit the shower and clean up, then we’re off again for a big family dinner, which will probably take up to about 10pm EST.  Thus, there won’t be a lot to see of US this weekend, but I know you’ll have fun peeping on Trixie’s and Jess’ cams on SpyOnYou, the dozens of other camming hotties that come along with my RudeCams, and the usual dirty as fuck updates from the other sites on our network.  Just do save a little goo for me, darlings.

Enjoy and we’ll see you Sunday night, Mina xoxoxo

It’s that time once again, when I think to myself  “Wow, I’ve made all this hot new indie porn that I should probably tell the rest of the world about.”   Thus, without further delay, here’s a peek at some recent action in our dirty little world:

XxxMina members recently got to see a bit more of how I give my man some stress relief.  Is Joe a lucky guy or what?  I just can’t bear to see him all stressed and worn out.  Time for another dick massage with my hands and mouth but *gasp* he just keeps getting stiffer! But after shooting a nice load of thick cum onto my tits, he seems much more relaxed.

Montreal Dream members probably found they were a little stiffer after a peek at lovely blonde Oro Mali.  She’s stripped right down and has her lightly fluffed pussy spread wide for Joe’s camera and your stroking pleasure.

Oh, no!  It’s my last Virginia Slims 120!!  Smoking Mina members know I always have more sexy cigarettes on hand, but I’m still going to make sure to enjoy every last long deep drag of this one.  I will not let anything distract me from the pure pleasure of smoking this cigarette — not even my clothing.

Glamour Smokers members found themselves singing “Ohhhhh, Donna” after seeing this brunette beauty light up.  She’s got a Bensen & Hedges 100 and is enjoying every lung-filling drag, snap inhale and exhale.

And of course, we’ve got way more where that came from and as a member of any one of our four kickass indie porn and fetish sites, you get access to everything else, including all three of my 24/7 live SpyCam channels.  Pick your poison and get your ass inside.

So, holy crap it’s been a busy few weeks!  As I mentioned in a previous post, I’ve been taking a nail technician’s course and have finally finished 2/3 of it.  Now I’ve got two weeks off until my exams on August 5th, then I’m back for three more days August 24th.

It’s been a lot of fun and I’ve been doing well (Mina Members oohed and ahhed very nicely over a peek at the work I did on my own nails during a camshow the other night), but has made for a bit of juggling to handle getting everything done while being out of the house 3 days a week.  Especially THOSE 3 days a week.  Don’t ask me why, but Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are prime-time for me, as far as internet work and housework.   I can’t get shit done around here Thursday – Sunday…probably because The Man is home then and we tend to prefer to hang with each other or get the hell out of here.

Happily, when I finish the course and start working at the salon across the street (convenient…si?), my schedule will be more Wednesday to Friday (and probably every 2nd Saturday — be damned if I’m working every single one), giving me back my preferred schedule.  A HUGE thanks to Mina Members for their patience with my exhaustion and absences from the SpyCams (apparently watching the cats just doesn’t do it for them the same way, hehehe), and their support and encouragement during this time.  You guys rock!

Biggest thank-you (ok, ok…I’ll throw a blowjob in, too) to my honey Joe though, for all of the above, ten times more, and for planting the seed in the first place.  I’m having a ball with this.  Power tools, chemicals, and pretty nails.  HELLZ YEAH!

In other news, we have managed a bit of fun.  Thursday, we took a drive to Quebec City to see a music festival.  That evening’s headliner was none other than KISS (Blue October opening up –  pretty frickin’ good, too).  We crammed onto the soggy fields of the Plains of Abraham with 80,000 other people and rocked out for a couple of hours.  Very, very cool.  Was my first time seeing them and we were close enough to ALMOST detect their facial features, lol…which were in full makeup, btw.  Kickass show, and Joe managed to record a lot of it, so watch for pix and video posted here soon — unfortunately, I’m screaming and yowling along with most of it, so be prepared to laugh your ass off, however I am proud to say I was the loudest bitch there.  Thank you..*curtsies* thank you…  Mama loves it loud.

Most of what they played was off of Kiss Alive II and they also did a bunch of other hits from their “disco days.”   Gene Simmons kept the Famous Tongue pretty active (which has oft inspired Yours Truly to a little tongue action herself), did some fire-eating, the blood dribbling thing and I damn near wet my panties.   SWEET.  Oh yeah, and the other guys did stuff too.  GENE!!   And yes, I still fantasize I’m his bastard daughter.

The agenda for the rest of the weekend:  cleaning the living hell out of this place, because it’s a pigsty and I’ll go crazy if I DON’T.  And tomorrow we’ll be whipping off some hot new smut.  Keep it tuned to the SpyCams, Mina Members…we’ll likely get started mid-afternoon EST.

Other random things, thoughts, moments…:

• Must redo my nails tonight.  What I have done now turned out pretty well, but it WAS only my 2nd time, I definitely made mistakes and I’ve improved since doing these.
• Joe and I have discovered CBC’s talk radio station.  We now admit we’re news junkies, that it probably means we’re getting old, and that really sucks donkey balls.
• The cats are NOT happy about this Mommy Gone All Day thing and have let me know in no uncertain terms.
• I totally want the 3D DVD of Coralline and can’t wait to see The Orphan.
• We’re going camping with Joe’s sibs and their families again next week and it might actually be sunny.  PLEASE!!!!!

Happy Saturday, darlings!

Mina xoxox